He said the same thing my friend said, of course--that I was selling myself short and shutting myself down.
He also talked about how I always tend to come up with negative scenarios about what might happen. It's true, LOL. I do scenarize a lot about the future, and nine times out of ten, it's something negative. But I always have this idea that by drawing up these negative scenarios in my head, I am somehow preparing myself for what's to come--that these scenarios are a way to cushion whatever future blows I might expect.
And Dad didn't think that the thing with "Leviathan" popping up in my head was God sending me a warning. He felt that the word was already in my head, since I had seen it in the Bible before, and that perhaps it was just a coincidence that it popped up. Sometimes I like to think that maybe it was and I just took it too seriously, but it seemed to fit so well into my situation that I felt it had to mean something.
So I guess that's it--my friend's said it, my dad's said it, and everyone I spoke to in between said it. So I guess I should just quit being a wuss and talk to the man. And if it doesn't work out, it doesn't work out. Either way, I'll be alright.
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