Found a four-leaf clover on the way back from Murphy's...

I was standing on the bus stop across the street from the store, taking a few photos, and I dropped my umbrella. I bent down to pick it up, then I saw the clover, and I picked it.

So, what does this mean, and why am I writing this? Well, I don't know. I am a bit of a magical thinker, though, and maybe this is a sign of good things to come. Who knows? Maybe my classmate and I will hook up, after all...LOL.

Speaking of which, I have been talking to him...and flirting. At first, it was a little disturbing to me, because up until now, I had never flirted with any guy ever in my life (sure, I've made out with a couple of guys before, but it was more spontaneous, and I was a lot more desperate back then than I am now), and also because I didn't know how it was going to affect him (I still think about that often). But it's starting to not be such a big deal. He's been surprisingly easy to talk to, and it turns out that he's kind of sweet. Not what I expected at all.

Actually, I've been kind of depressed about him, because I still wonder if he has a girlfriend. I doubt that he's involved with the girl in our class, but there's someone else he might be with. There's this one blonde chick whom I always see him talking to, and I fear that that might be his girlfriend. She's also been present for a few class projects. When I think about her, it makes me really nervous about my situation with this man, and now I'm afraid that I really will find out in some fucked up way that he has a girlfriend (i.e., his girlfriend makes herself known by confronting me, or I see them kissing in a hallway, or if you really want to get extreme, I could walk in on them having sex in the auditorium of the Hartford Building!). At any rate, if I find out he does have a girlfriend, I'm going to feel really guilty about flirting with him...

I guess that's where that clover came in today. Maybe God meant for me to find the clover because He saw how depressed I was and wanted me to cheer up. Well, it did make me feel a lot better than I was feeling...