I feel a little better today...

I started cleaning my apartment today. That helped take some of the stress off of me.

I'm still having feelings of paranoia and uneasiness, but it's not so bad. It's tapering off a bit...

Right now, I'm watching "Sifl & Olly" clips. (Something happy! Yay!) I confess, though, that it's to get my mind cleared after looking up some more info on cults--this time, it was Heaven's Gate. Luckily, it didn't have the same effect on me as the Jonestown "death tape." I think it's because not as many people died--39 people this time versus over 900--and the video left behind didn't have any distorted music on it. O_o

I called my friend today. He had called earlier today to ask me if I wanted to attend a study at his new church--the church I fear might be a potential cult (it's still a long story). I said I didn't know, and that I had been trying to take a friend of mine from work to attend a Catholic church that some of my relatives attend, because she wanted to know more about it. He asked if I was interested in going Saturday, and wanted me to ask my friend from work if she wanted to go, too. I really don't want to go, and I definitely don't want her involved, because I don't know what it will lead too. If this is a cult, and we attend this study, we might end up trapped somehow. I'm waiting for the day when he calls me and tells me that the Lord told the church's resident prophet that I have to go whether I want to or not, and he starts trying to force me--and maybe even my work buddy--to go with him.

A lot of things are running through my head right now, and I'm really concerned for my friend and for myself. All I can do now is pray for him, that no matter what, he comes out okay. I really don't think he realizes what he's gotten himself into.