Yes, my resolutions.
I don't make any in January, like most people. I'd rather wait until my birthday. That's when my new year starts.
Usually I try to go a little deeper with mine--I steer clear of things like weight loss and finding love. Too many people resolve to do those things, plus for me, resolutions like that seem to be too on-the-surface and are often broken in a short period of time. I always try to make mine a bit more spiritual, more emotional, more personal. And I tend to base them on past mistakes I've made.
My resolutions from last year included being more open and honest (mainly with myself) about my feelings; accepting every aspect of myself, good and bad; not imposing on others; and seeing things from a brighter perspective. As I had pointed out in an earlier post (I believe it was this past summer or fall), I haven't exactly kept all my resolutions. For instance, I didn't look at the bright side of everything, and a lot of times I wasn't all that loving--in fact I was very sensitive and judgmental (e.g., Alicia, Swizz, Mashonda). Also I let emotion govern much of my thinking, which has always been a major shortcoming of mine.
I do plan on carrying at least some of these resolutions into this year. I don't know yet how many I'll have this year, but I still want to go along the same lines as the past couple of years, and I want to make them more practical--for example, I know I need to manage my time better, so I can add that to the list.
I usually have my resolutions typed up and ready to go by my birthday, but this year I'm behind, mainly because of being stressed about classes, in addition to work and errands. (This may be where time management comes in.) I'm hoping that I can have something before next week.
I also made a list of things I want to accomplish or experience before I turn 30--maybe this way, I'll really have something to do this year. Some stuff will be just...stuff. Others will be more personal, and very private. And I want some of these to serve a deeper purpose, too. Hopefully this will help me to actually live, not just exist as a functional being.
(Of course, I'm always open to ideas, so if anyone has some...)
Like anyone, I'm always looking to be better than before. And as long as I do what I'm supposed to do and actually follow through with these goals I've set, I'll make it. I don't expect to keep each and every resolution--that's part of the learning process. But I can keep pushing myself...and this year I want to push harder.
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