...and I have a feeling that things will change this time...because I'll make damn sure they will!
So far, the year's getting off to a fair start. With the help of a good book and my AA&D program, I think I'm finally starting to get over Donnie (might as well say his name--he'll never see this blog, anyway). Also, since the beginning of 2008, I have collectively lost about 36 pounds and two pants sizes! ^_^
I've just finished reading this book called He's Just Not That Into You, and it helped me to better understand why Donnie rejected me. (I won't rule out the race card, though!) I had actually bought the book about four or five years ago, but had never read it before; at first I figured that, because I had never been in a relationship, I wouldn't be able to relate to any of the examples in the book. And that's what almost turned me off this time. But then I thought a bit about my situation with Donnie, and I thought the book might give me some insight after all. I was right. I turns out that despite my lack of a lovelife, I could relate to a lot of what was in the book, and the further I read into the book, the more I began to understand my own situation, and the easier it was for me to grasp the concept that Donnie just doesn't want to be with me and that I must move on. So now it's not such a crippling issue.
Now I can release Donnie into the great unknown, and forget him once and for all. Besides, I've got more important things to attend to. I've told him where I live, and if he ever decides he wants anything to do with me later on, he knows where to find me--I'm not going anywhere!
So that's it for all that. It's so nice to know that 2009 is not going to be a continuation of my obsession with Donnie.
As for my weight loss, it's partly from lack of money and partly from less fast food. I had already cut down on sodas, and I watch my calories--something I never thought I'd be doing 10 years ago, LOL. I plan on losing 10 more pounds before my birthday, meaning I need to get on the ball and start exercising regularly. (So far it's just been the eating and my having a physically-demanding job which saved me from extreme ballooning.)
I am so thankful to God that I've gotten this far, and that 2009 is already turning out to be a good year for me, and I pray that He'll help me to keep it that way. I am really optimistic now.
