Turns out, the man hadn't even looked at the message at the time. I still don't know if he's looked at it--if we're still getting along, chances are he probably didn't--and not being able to talk to him about it is getting to me. I can't stand it! I have to talk to him. I have to find some way, because it's not enough for me to just deal with it alone. I'm praying for the chance to talk.
I'm tired of being quiet and I'm tired of not letting my feelings be known. As I said before with regards to the MySpace message, I really don't care how he takes it. This is for me. I'm tired of being passive and scared. I want him to know where I stand.
As a matter of fact...he's in class right now. I feel like just marching right into that classroom and screaming at him, I'm so mad. And he'd better listen...
...Alright, I know I shouldn't be mad. But I'm tired of being the odd man out! I'm tired of having to get over someone I want! It's about time that someone wanted me, too. It makes no sense that I'll be 27 in less than four months, and I still have no romantic experience. I feel like I'm still the class outcast--and I graduated from Valley eight years ago!
Damn you, you...jerk! Why are you doing this to me?!!... LOL XD
